Wednesday, January 16, 2013


Hello Dear All,
I've shifted to
Breena, when you're free, shall need you to customise my blog for me.=)

Wednesday, January 2, 2013

The First-2013

*pops confetti*
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Okok, I know I am late, but just one day la!
It's 2013! Woohoo ! I'm 20!
Ps:I don't care about the exact date which I turn 20.For all intent and purposes when people ask, how old are you?
Don't tell me you want me to answer, 'oh another six months and twenty five day I'll be twenty.'
*roll eyes*
That sounds so wrong.Of course, I'm telling them I'm twenty, regardless of how mathematically it is wrong.Who cares anyway, if you are official or unofficially your age.

On side note, I can't believe this!I'm in my twenties!!

Hmm, I'm thinking what will happen in this decade.
It's just another nine years to go ok.
Will the world end?Will I be able to b a successful lawyer?
Will I be able to live a life of purpose?
Will I be able to travel?
How many people will benefit from my life?
On a more personal view, will I get married?
*laughs* seems far away, but hey, time flies!
Will I be a millionaire by thirty?
Will my grandparents still be alive ?:(
This means time is running out , can't take my own sweet time.
(grandpa's not saved):((((

I'm blessed, to have wonderful grandparents.
Not matter what happens they are still the same, they never change.
The care and love remains, as it was, and still is.
As a little kid, I always always wore dresses.
I dare say, dresses fit for the bride!Really, it's all just so prettiful, handmade by my dearest grandma.
Like little princess, full of laces, ribbons, flowers, colours!
All custom made!I know it's a privilege.(Hey, I'mnot bragging.Just being thankful, and counting my blessigns)
Thats why I am blessed.I never have to buy!and even the clothes in the stores out there cannot compare to the clothes I once wore..

And I had the best days when I was a kid, playing in the 'jungle' with my cousin.Well, it's not really a jungle,more of a rubber plantation.
Nevertheless, it's close to one!
We get to see snakes and other scary creatures.
Beautiful birds, crickets, even eating squirrel/bat meat!

Sigh, I could go on and on.Well, those are the times.

But there is still hope, even in 2013, this year could yet be the best year of my life,or your life!Who knows:)
Well, despite it being the first year of my degree, despite the stress, despite the bleak economy, one thing is for sure.
My God never change.
That, is a statement, a fact.
His love for you and me remains.=)
And because of that, I can look forward to a new year, a year of hope and joy.
My hope is in Him,
Blessings shall come my way!Hurray!

And now, here's to the year 2013!

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Merry Christmas 2012

So here's a special post dedicated to you,
Merry Christmas!
Blessed New Year.
*We should look forward to all things good in the new year!*

Friday, December 21, 2012



Today, being the last day of class for 2012, and being a 19 year old ever to step into class again, is a bit nostalgic for me.=(
Okay, actually as I type this, the class is already over.And it's 10pm here, I'm sitting in front of my laptop.
Today's devotion from Crosswalk Singles 'Try It, Yule Like It' asked readers to sit down and think of the past, present, and future.
That's what I'm doing now anyways.
I'm regretting not enjoying every possible moment in my life.
Sigh.The stress is kicking in once again, even during this Christmas season.
I just had a friend commenting that I radiate the stress through my expression, my body language.
I know right, of all the good things a friend can say, this is what he told me.
Guess it's kinda like a slap in the face, waking me up.
It's like ,'Michele, why are you drowning in your own misery?'
The way I see it, I've got a choice.
He was right.I should enjoy life.
Enjoy life as in enjoy the little things that happen each day, enjoy the 'stress' that God inputs into my life.
Sometimes, you just gotta sit down and look around, taking in the surroundings, appreciate the chance to study, to have so many books piled high enough I can't see my way around it.
I'm not being sacarstic here.
I'm being totally serious.
The other day, another friend was telling me, 'Michele, can you please be positive at this moment?'
I know right, total control freak =Michele.

So, today, I decided.
Actually I decided many many many times.
It's just so easy to stray away, you know.
IT's just so easy to be engulfed by the storms of this world, many times I found myself drownin in deep waters, only to resurface and tell myself I will start doing the right things eg:swim.
Only to be distracted by what's happening down in the water.

That's why when people say 'I fail God everyday.But God never fails me'
I totally agree.
Sigh.Since last 3 months, all I've been trying to do is spend QT everyday.

Ok, but I'm doing it again.
This time putting a little more effort.
To enjoy and appreciate whatever God plans for me.
I should just surrender right.Since God has already planned the future for me.
Easier said than done.
I should really do it.
Shit.This is difficult.SO MANY TIMES I said I will.
I'm always coming back to square one!
ISSSH.This is so embarrassing punya failure.
It's like you know the solution, yet you just keep getting yourself trapped.

okok.I better stop here.This is going round and round over the same issue.
I probably blogged about this thousand and one times.

One happy moment this week, was outing with Breena.
To midvalley.Can you imagine?
The WHOLE MONTH of Dec I went out only once, to shop.
Okay, fine, plus IOI Mall, two.
ok.Whatodo.Be contemt with what you have now.

Okay, the pics.

The Date of the Day, dengan Aku.

Blur pic =(

Phewiit, self proclaimed model.Actually I forced her to pose like that one la..

Like an airplane gliding through the clouds.=))

Like a scarecrow je kan?

Does this pic makes me look old?

Behold, this is the best photo EVER!

Doesn't it just look like a perfectly take shot?The Background was so real and awesome too.
Like a magazine cover.I'm being real and serious.=)

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Hello January 2013

The title is in anticipation of January 2013.
It's the 15th  Dec today.Meaning, another 15 days to go, before the new year starts.

It's a bit sad, really.
It's like, sigh, the year passed by too quicly.
I dont want it to end!!
I need more time, I need time to relax,
I need time to go christmas shopping,
I need time to read novels,
I need time to study, 
I need time to practice my essay,
I need time to hang out with my friends
I need time to spend time with God each day,
I need time to ......

There's just a never ending list.
I really am deprived of all that.
Isn't this a constant thing?
Battling with time.Running against time.
I'm sure all my blog post, say 90% is about me not having enough time.
And it's true.
Aiyah, dont compare others to me and say,
'Time is equal for all, why some can survive, yet you can't?'
I can't really give an answer to that.
Seems like my life is just really busy, with lotsa stuff I cant pinpoint it to just one 'stuff' you know.
I really can't.
What the earth.This is going to get into an emo post again.
Or a complain post.About time being not enough.
Whatever la.Im tired too, of the same old topic.About time.

I don't know.What should I do?
I did a timetable, yet today is the 6th day I've been trying to follow it, to no avail.=(
I feel totally useless, and fed up.
It's like 'AHH.Give up!'

But I can't, again, I won't.
Hello, My life , my future depended on my decisions now, I better make wise decisions.
Yet, I really am helpless...
What should I do?

On a side note, today's devotion talked about trusting God.

'Trust in the Lord with all your heart
    and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
    and he will make your paths straight.'

When you lift your eyes from your situation and fix them on your Savior – when you choose to trust Him – you will find peace in the pain and strength in the struggle.

Yes, this could be the solution.
But you know, it's hard too.
How many time have I failed Jesus.
I always go back to being 'in charge' of my life.
I keep neglecting God, and doing other 'important' things first.
Yet, God has reminded me , again and again, through ways like this, to come back to Him.
I strayed from the path, too frequent.
This really is a struggle, between trusting that everything is in God's hands, and keeping everything under my own control.

Everytime I respond with a 'Yes, I trust you I surrender to You'
Yet after few days the same old habit comes back again, 
To being worrying and worrying and worrying about every single thing in my life!!
I tell you, it's frustrating.

But thank God, my God is a gracious God.
And I will try again, and again, everytime He reminds me, I will try to follow His will.
So God, please help me to focus on you and not the drowning waters.

Sunday, December 9, 2012

Have a Good Day!

Heavy rains remind us of challenges in life. Never ask for a lighter rain.
Just pray for a better umbrella........................That's attitude.
When flood comes, fish eat ants & when flood recedes, ants eat fish.
Only time matters............................................ Just hold on, God gives opportunity to everyone!

Life is not about finding the right person, but creating the right relationship.
It's not how we care in the beginning,...............but how much we care till the very end.
Some people always throw stones in your path.  It depends on you what you make with them. 

A Wall or a Bridge?...........................................
 Remember you are the architect of your life. 
Search for a beautiful heart, but don't search for a beautiful face
'coz beautiful things are not always good, ........ but good things are always beautiful.
It’s not important to hold all the good cards in life. 
but it’s important how well you play with the cards you hold.
Often when we lose all hope & think this is the end,
God smiles from above and says, `relax dear it’s just a bend, not the end.
Have Faith and have a successful life. 

One of the basic differences between God and humans is, God gives, gives and forgives.
but the human gets, gets, gets and forgets. 
Be thankful in life....

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Christmas Performance 2012

'We are the Reason'
The song.The performance.The arrangement.
I'm about to give up.
I want to just ignore all this.And sit far away as an audience.And see, what are they gonna do, what are they doing , on the stage.What will happen.Will the stage crumble down, will they mess up the whole thing, will they be able to perform well, as perfect as they are able to.
I wanna just hide behind the shadows, and see, for once, what are they going to do.
And see, if they will still work out something, or if they will wait for someone to do something.Then they will just mess it up so horrigible-ly that they wish the grounds will open up and swallow them.
I sound so bitter.But you made me like this.

But I can't and I won't, because probability leans more on where the whole thing will become a mess.
And I can't let that happen.How could I do that?
So I'm going to do this.I'm going to do it.
*grits my teeth and stand up*

I will be able to do it.
God will help me.
I will take charge, if no one else cares, I will care and I will make sure we did do our best.
Our best, that's what that is important.Even if things dont turn out as good as i imagine it would be, as long as we did our best.
That's enough.I will do it, God will help me.
I will pray before I start anything tomorrow and I will smile, throughout the entire practice.
I will not be angered, I will just do as much as I can.
I will be able to do it, so God help me.

I have the right to show that I'm not satisfied with you.Don't blame me, when you pushed me against the wall, the best I can do is this.

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Worship Dance 1

Today onwards, gonna compilee worship dances I find on the net that are simply amazing!
ok, here's one.

Friday, November 23, 2012

The Week That Just Passed

Hello Dear Blog,
It's been a week.A WEEK.without me realising it.
I thought I just did a post days ago, and it's been a week.
Was talking to my girlfriend when she reminded me of this.*laughs*
So basically, the last week has been rather busy, with lots and lots of things happenning.
Some of it I won't share here.Too much of emotional storm.

On a brighter side,
i wanna type the word again, MAKEOVER!!!
it's like my first, yeayea, i know i know, i came out from the jungle.
Come on, I'm a girl too, okay.
It's my 3rd time putting on full make up for as far as i can remember.
By full, I mean the base,the blusher, the eyeliner,eyeshadow,lid tape, the lipstick.
Yeah, it probably didnt seem quite full if compared to the makeup artists out there.
They probably have got primer, foundation, loose powder, lipliner,mascara,falsies, extraordinary eyeshadow.LOL
So it's actually an event sponsored by Cosway.For their loyal customers *bows*
And we all had a photoshoot.=))

Yay, it's like a mini celebrity for a lil while.I am vain.What to do.

This is momo being made-up.

HAHA.didnt purposely post this,but you can see the magic of makeup.

And this's me.The mini skirt super short I have to sit like that.I'm not trying to hiao ok.

Now this is one photo worth see-ing. My cutie pie.=)

Mom and I.
ps: I like the 2nd pic better, at least cant see the squareness of my jaw.=(

Us three.Now, this must put XL size so you all can see.LOL

Another handsome boy pic=)

People say, like sis, like bro.LOL(I just created that)

And this is what happened few days ago, I got fried under the sun, for one whole day.==
Sunkissed skin.Now I know what it looks like.
The fair skin part is actually where I wore the tag before the entrance into the Desa Water Park.
PS: I'll steal some pics from my girlfriend's fb to update here later.

And this is just recently, when we went KFC for dinner.
Now, tell me, muka ada nampak macam sama tak?

Thursday, November 15, 2012

The Moment of Anger

Have you ever just felt a 'rush' of anger?
So much so that you lashed out at someone spitefully,  or do some hurtful things.And then, later you feel the guilt and regret doing it.
FYI, that always happens to me.
Just had a 'shouting' competition with my younger brother.

Made a cup of soya milk for him coz he was hungry.
I poured it into a Doraemon cup, it's not really hiss cup, kinda like for anyone in the family to use.
The next moment he came in, he was crying and shouting that he wanted a red one.
And I thought he wanted a red straw, since he likes using straws to drink.
So I inserted one and yet he continues crying and crying.
Then, I got mad, and started shouting back too.
And the war starts....

Turns out he wanted a green cup, which he always uses when mum made milk for him.
Just that he can't express himself and remembered the colour wrongly.

10 minutes later, I feel bad, for shouting.
Seriously, it's just going as low as an 8 year old for shouting back when he shouts at you.
You know, since I'm 'grown-up' and all, should have just calmed him down and ask him to talk nicely, right?
Instead of shouting and shouting and shouting.
Stupid Michele.

This is just one of a gazilion times where I lose it and anger overtook, only to find out later that what I did was wrong.
Sigh.I'm sorry, Lord.
I'm sorry to all the people out there whom I lashed at just because of something small and silly.
I'm trying to be more patient, so give me the chance.